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Rough few days

Wednesday, 11 Apr 12 Rainy 12°C / 54°F

hmmm …where to begin …..okay this is not a happy post but I need to sort of get this out …..therapy I suppose ……so if your still here thank you for listening : ) …..at about 8 pm on Easter sunday I got a frantic phone call from one of my best friends that her male goat did not return in that night with the herd ….she went to look for him and found him lying on the ground kicking violently ( now I’m not sure I mentioned this but my mans family has an organic produce and dairy goat farm and that is where we spend most of our weekends ….helping them ) Now my friend is actually a dairy cow farmer her daughter had gotten into the goats in her 4-H group some years ago ….then one day her daughter decided to do something heroic and saved a poor little goat kid that was sure to go for meat by tearing up those big beautiful blue eyes of hers and pleading "but momma please "……so my friend took this non spectacular boer goat home …..well he soon became part of the family and they named him Lucky …..well upon hearing this I throw on a jacket and head right out ……now he is a big boy and finding it impossible to move him as he was on a steep and rocky slope I go get hay bales to prop him up on so I can get him comfortable, block the wind and examine him …..Unfortunately he had been writhing on the rocks long enough to ulcerate an eye …..I check him for bloat which I was hoping for as this is easy to fix if caught soon with a bit of baking soda and while he is drooling and frothing at the mouth and burping profusely he is not showing the other classic signs ….I check him for worms and sadly I am beginning to realize that I am dealing with something far more serious …..He has become ridgid at this point and several attempts to call the vet are futile ……I decide to take action and begin to question them about what he ate in the last 24 hours ……It comes out in conversation that he had gotten into some of the horses sweet feed ……so now I begin to suspect goat polio …..I need thiamine if it is and soon …..we call several other vets to no avail ( they dont treat livestock or they are away for spring break ) ….now I am realizing that it has got to be either goat polio or listeriosis ….. their symptoms do mimic each other ….now as I mentioned we had no thiamine as it is sadly a vet only prescription so I decide to begin the treatment with penicillin for listeriosis….. needless to say I tried everything even tubing and feeding him electrolytes and healthy probiotics after he had eliminated sucessfully to counter the penicillin that was wiping out the good bacteria …we kept turning him and working his limbs so sores and atrophy would not set in and began to treat the ulcerated eye as well ……by monday night the foaming had stopped but the drooling continued and his lungs began to sound like pneumonia was setting in …..now both nights the wind was howling but we covered him with blankets and made a lean to to keep him as sheltered as possible ……I decided to amp up the penicillin dosage in a last ditch effort to kick the pneumonia …..now I am an herbal healer so I hate to use meds but in this case it was clearly warranted …..so I kept trying to comfort him and he did seem to appreciate this ……this went on until the vet finaly got us the thiamine last night and within 2 hours he was now holding his head up …..he made a bleat that even sounded normal ……it was then that I decided to finally rest….said a prayer of healing and turned in ….. but when I awoke this morning and made my way back down the slope he had passed on …..I feel so sad ….while I know I did everything I could ……he died alone and that kills me …..we had a service for him and planted flowers today …..I think the worst part was those big teary blue eyes searching my face for answers ……we had all wanted him to pull through …..the silver lining though was that for a plain jane nothing fancy male goat he did live up to his name …..He was truely one of the lucky ones ……He had an awesome life …..another possitive thing is my time away from home allowed Charlie ( my guy) to bond with all the chicks who are now a bit over a month old and growing like weeds ….he also took to taking very good care of all our tender seedlings …..Tonight I feel so drained …..I feel like the wind took it’s toll on me too ….I am drinking tea of burdock root with dandelion, echinacea and oregon grape tinctures hoping I can now heal myself …..I am going to cheer myself by reading all of your garden accomplishments as I need to smile and like I said before if your still reading Thank you for listening and bless you ~hugs and peace

photos are me with some of the family goat herd , me tending the farm stand and some of the seedlings entrusted to the man the past few days and Charlie and heather face off



  • Mamabluestem

    Mamabluestem wrote:

    Oh sweetie, you truly need hugs, many many huge hugs! I’m so truly sorry for your loss and absolutely know you did everything possible you could for Lucky. Now you need to take care of yourself, and all my prayers and thoughts are with you. -sleep well tonite.

    Posted on 11 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • cuylarmntherbs

    cuylarmntherbs wrote:

    Thank you my friend and many hugs to you as well !!! Hope all is well at your house and you had an awesome holiday : )

    Posted on 11 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • Gardenerd

    Gardenerd wrote:

    I am so sorry to hear of such a traumatic loss, my thoughts are with you as well. Please do take comfort in knowing you went above & beyond for sweet Lucky. Allow the wonderful memories to seep in this evening & take solace that he’s in no more pain. hugs

    Posted on 11 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • anelson

    anelson wrote:

    Sounds like lucky had a lot of love! Sorry for your loss.

    Posted on 11 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • Mamabluestem

    Mamabluestem wrote:

    All’s well at our house. We dodged the freeze last night and didn’t lose any plants. DS#1 starts radiation tomorrow morning, and today he got a script for special glasses with prisms for the double vision. So weird to say, but it’s been a good day here. Take care.

    Posted on 11 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • nickyn

    nickyn wrote:

    I’m sorry to hear of your loss. Sounds like he had a lovely life. My thoughts are with you.

    Posted on 12 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • cuylarmntherbs

    cuylarmntherbs wrote:

    Thank you all so much ….believe me if love alone could have saved him …..if only : ) …..I’m actually okay ….enjoying the community here so much ….@mamablue I continue to pray every day for you and your family in your journey and I am so glad the plants made it through : )

    Posted on 12 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • glgardener

    glgardener wrote:

    Oh no, I am so sorry to hear this heartbreaking story. You certainly gave it your all and I am sure he knew you were trying to help. {{hugs}}

    Posted on 12 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • SneIrish

    SneIrish wrote:

    So sorry about Lucky’s passing. I’m sure that the tender and loving care you took of him made his last hours more bearable and comfortable. Now take care of yourself so you and Charlie can bring up those chickies and seedlings.

    Posted on 12 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • cuylarmntherbs

    cuylarmntherbs wrote:

    Yes gl I think he honestly did know : ) …..thank you and Sneirish thank you and you are right : ) ….I am sorry to write something sort of depressing like this but it helps to write it out …..when I start to second guess myself I know I did all I could ….the thiamine just came too late ….If this experience helps someone in the future then all the better ( a fence that won’t hold water won’t hold a goat LOL ) so in other words they get into things …..they have incredibly sensitive stomachs …..time is of the essence …..I know this is supposed to be a garden journal but gardeners are in a sense farmers so I share my crazy farm life stories here as well …..most of them are happy though : ) again I thank you all so much ~peace and blessings

    Posted on 12 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • rosemarieGardener

    rosemarieGardener wrote:

    I am very sorry for your loss and difficult time. You must take care of yourself now.

    Posted on 12 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • AnneTanne

    AnneTanne wrote:

    So sad…

    Posted on 12 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • LouiseM

    LouiseM wrote:

    It’s little comfort, I’m sure, but you did everything you could for him. So sad. Hope you are able to heal yourself and will recover from this sad loss in time. The photo of Charlie and Heather is very sweet.

    Posted on 13 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • MedPretzel

    MedPretzel wrote:

    I am late in saying this, but I am so so so sorry…. Death and dying are very hard to take and you did a great job. There are so many people who are proud of you (me included), and the goat knows you did all you could for him. Here’s there at the Rainbow Bridge right now….. Hugs and good thoughts your way,


    Posted on 14 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • cuylarmntherbs

    cuylarmntherbs wrote:

    Thank you so much <3 ……that means so much : )

    Posted on 15 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • Armorel

    Armorel wrote:

    Late to this thread (I’ve been away for the weekend) and the sad news.
    What you did went far beyond the normal call of duty but, despite all your heroic efforts, the poor goat just didn’t make it. But you did everything you could and now you need to rest and recuperate. Will they get another goat?
    Sending hugs XXXXX

    Posted on 16 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

  • cuylarmntherbs

    cuylarmntherbs wrote:

    Armorel Thank you and many hugs to you my friend …..I hope you had a great weekend !! They are planning on getting another goat …..goats are funny creatures they get into your heart and you are never the same : ) ….Oh and I am good …..two days of immunity blend tea and I was able to beat it YAY !!! : )

    Posted on 17 Apr 12 (almost 3 years ago)

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